Monthly Archives: May 2012

Spirit of Rejection, Leave Me Be

To be honest, I don’t even know how to begin this article because there is so much information I want to share but I am having such a difficult time. Thus far, this is the most emotional article I have written. As I sit here with tears in my eyes I will write everything the Lord gives me to write. Although this seems to be more difficult with each word, I must fight to be free from the spirit of rejection. I encourage everyone to look at the videos in this post.

Romans 5:8 (KJV): But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”

The interesting thing about rejection is that this is the one thing that everyone has experienced, even if they have “never” been rejected on Earth. God gave me the mind to understand that everyone experiences rejection by God before our rebirth. Psalm 51:5 (KJV): ” 5Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.” Before we receive salvation our father is Satan, simply because he is who we naturally yield our members to. John 8:44 (KJV): “Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it.” I believe that we all are born with what I call a “flicker of light,” which makes us want to know God and be received by Him. Keep in mind that we are all made in the Father’s image and though that image is damaged by the world of sin, He gives each of us the opportunity to be rekindled. This makes sense considering that we all know that not only does the Word clearly emphasize that love is the greatest of them all (1 Corinthians 13:13), but even the world openly pursues love and acceptance. What truly runs everything? love.

Psalm 5:4-6 (KJV): 4For thou art not a God that hath pleasure in wickedness: neither shall evil dwell with thee.5The foolish shall not stand in thy sight: thou hatest all workers of iniquity.6Thou shalt destroy them that speak leasing: the LORD will abhor the bloody and deceitful man.”

From the moment we enter this world we begin our search for love and acceptance. Mind you we already have a deep mission to be accepted by the Heavenly Father but naive and clueless, we seek natural avenues to fulfill spiritual voids. This search creates opportunity for the love of lust, the love of money, the love of flesh. People, myself included, can, have, and will spend many years and a lot of money trying to find what will make their life complete. You know the quote, “Money cannot buy happiness?” It is true because while many think finances will fill our missing void, they soon find that one cannot please lust. You cannot satisfy Satan. Not only does seeking things of the flesh make a foolish individual hopeful that they will become complete, but they begin to believe that their sin loves them back. This is where addictions and idolatry begins because as long as Satan can keep you in bondage, his sin will always be there waiting for you. If an individual you expect to always be there for you isn’t, marijuana, fornication, masturbation,porn, alcohol etc. always seems to enter the front of your mind saying, “Hey, I am here for you. I know they let you down but I’ll always accept you. I know your flesh loves me and I really hate you but I’ll make you believe that I love you.” Our minds become easily tricked because whether we admit it or not, we desperately want to be loved, accepted, and cherished. The whole adventure of life is finding our missing Piece. Once some of us become aware of God we can either go with Him or we can go against Him, rejecting Him from our own hurt. Atheists believe in God and they know He exists but from whatever hurt and turmoil that they’ve experienced, they reject His truth. Even Satan knows God for who He is, why wouldn’t a human? A human doesn’t know anything that God or Satan, angels or demons don’t know. They all knew the Truth before we existed. God is a gentle God and won’t force Himself on anyone but when He takes time to draw you nigh (John 6:44) and you accept, it is then that you can realize that He is who you’ve been missing the entire time. The best part of the journey is that while you may look for a man or woman to love you like you love them, a pet who loves you unquestionably, or merchandise that will keep you in good spirit, God will show you that along this journey He is protecting you, He is loving you, and He has been waiting for you, unconditionally.

Proverbs 8:17 (KJV):17 I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me.”

John 3:16 (KJV): 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

Rejection is a tough one, as many of us know. I remember for many years knowing that I had an issue but never knowing what the issue was, the root of the issue. I only knew that I was becoming crazier by the minute looking for it. There had been nothing in this world that I wanted and didn’t have yet my heart ached as if someone was slowly pulling it out of my chest. The week before I had gotten saved I sat and thought about how I had become exhausted by every avenue you could thing of. I had tried just about everything you could think of to fill my void. I had collected so many sins, so many bad habits, so many enemies, so many friends who were secretly enemies, so much confusion, so much demonic oppression.. just because I was looking for love in all of the wrong places. You know that love is powerful when even the world goes crazy looking for it. The only twist is that the “world” collectively knows more than what we know individually and for that very reason, it has roller coasters that keep us from His correct path. False religions, extreme behaviors, and materialism keep us bound and chasing a lie. It is like taking a stick with meat and tying it to the back of a dog, just so that it dangles enough for the dog to see it. The dog will run and run and run for that piece of meat only to find that they’ve hit a tree and fallen in a ditch and that they STILL will not receive that meat, even though they have become more desperate by the minute.

Romans 8:37-39 (KJV): 37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”

As I write this to everyone reading this, I first write it to myself. To be set free from the spirit of rejection we must…we must come to God. The only one who can fulfill our deepest desires is the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. It may not be easy and it may not happen overnight but we have to start somewhere. You will go absolutely crazy if you look to anyone other than God to do a job that only He is equipped to do. It is our human nature to look to friends, family, our spouses to save us from our pain but we will forever become upset and crippled to find out that we are looking for something unconditional in conditional beings. You can begin doing the world, trying to survive off of instant happiness only to find out that the world is doing you and that the joy of life is being sucked out of you by spiritual leeches. Rejection hurts, it is true but if it weren’t in us, we would never come to know God. While rejection is the one thing that every individual can attest to, it is also the very thing that will always make God relevant in our lives. If you think we look to man now…if we could find unconditional love and acceptance in this world, we would kiss God goodbye and become married to the god of this world almost immediately. God is so caring that He gave each of us a drive to know Him and when the Holy Spirit draws us nigh, He awakens that drive. Again, we either reject Him or accept Him. God gives us an ultimate relief because while we have no answer, He is the answer. He puts us out of our misery, regardless of how long we endured. This is also why we cannot effectively recognize love and give it without knowing Him. Our deepest dwellings begin to come alive and spill over when we meet our Source. When I had gotten saved I said to God, “God, love might be real, I am not sure but I am certain that it isn’t for me. If it is real, then why can’t I identify it? Why does everyone have it but me? I have everything and everyone I want but the void remains. I have looked everywhere for this love and though I thought my parents could offer it, even they fall short. Lord, I thought no one loved me more than myself and even my selfish love doesn’t suffice. No one loves self more than self. Love cannot be real so I give up.” He responded, “That’s because you looked everywhere but to Me.”

1 John 4:9-12 (KJV): “9 In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him. 10 Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins.11 Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another.12 No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us.”

Father, we come to You today simply thanking You for who You are. We do not deserve all that You have bestowed upon us. Justice says that we should die but Your mercy and grace gives us Life. Some of us know about our struggle with the spirit of rejection and some of don’t. Right now we bind all spirits of rejection, all spirits of self-rejection, and all spirits of the fear of rejection. Father, we ask that You continue to guide us to the Source of our yearning. Please keep us from pursing avenues that aren’t You. You are the Key to everything about us. Many of us are broken and crippled but we ask for Your love that surpasses all understanding. We believe that You fix hearts and we ask that You fix ours. When we put our trust and hope in man and merchandise, Holy Spirit please convict us and change our ways. Whether individuals admit their yearning to know You or not, we ask that You reveal how mighty You are. Some may feel embarrassed to admit that the deepest part of their being wants love and acceptance. Please wake Your people up and show them that while seeking for love can make one do the craziest things,love can also cause someone to do the most virtuous things. You are love and we accept You as our everything and you..spirit of rejection…leave us be. Amen.

Proverbs 3:3 (KJV): Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart.


Hem of His Garment

Proverbs 4:20-22 (KJV): 20 My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto my sayings.21 Let them not depart from thine eyes; keep them in the midst of thine heart.22 For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh.”

Adversity with health is different from adversity with anything else. Health is directly connected with life and as humans, it is only a natural instinct to fear death. Anything that even makes us think that we could be approaching death either slowly or quickly, can be mind-boggling. For most of my life I have been a hypochondriac and after coming to know the Lord, my prayer has been that He take all fear from me. I no longer wanted to be crippled by merely the thought of being sick. It didn’t take me long to realize that worrying about my health was an avenue used by Satan to keep me bound. As soon as I even thought something was wrong with me, I went into panic mode acting on feelings and quickly dropping my faith. Of course this is unacceptable so my prayer became that He would purge this from me and guess what? Here I am writing this article.

Exodus 15:26 (KJV): 26 And said, If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of the Lord thy God, and wilt do that which is right in his sight, and wilt give ear to his commandments, and keep all his statutes, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the Lord that healeth thee.”

As mentioned in Faithful Is He, after about a week in America I was diagnosed with an illness that I am slowly but surely recovering from. For those who know me personally, I am sure you know that I had a bit of a moment in the hospital where I had to gather myself and decide if I would allow my emotions to get the best of me OR if I would hold on to the fact that I serve a mighty God who says that He knows the plans He has for me. No one truly understands what it means to be sick until they are actually sick. This makes so much sense to me because while doctors are expecting full and a speedy recovery, my current circumstances require for me to do more than just imagine; they require for me to deal realistically. To help me understand it God has to help bring me through it.

Exodus 23:25 (KJV): 25 And ye shall serve the Lord your God, and he shall bless thy bread, and thy water; and I will take sickness away from the midst of thee.”

I don’t really want to discuss death too much in this article because I want to save that topic for an article in the future but I do want to talk about how sickness can be spiritually and naturally inspired. We certainly shouldn’t give Satan too much credit, always blaming him for everything that goes wrong. While Satan does his job to the best of his ability, he has no authority over that of God’s and if God sees fit, He will bring it to pass.

John 4:47-52 (KJV): 47 When he heard that Jesus was come out of Judaea into Galilee, he went unto him, and besought him that he would come down, and heal his son: for he was at the point of death.48 Then said Jesus unto him, Except ye see signs and wonders, ye will not believe.49 The nobleman saith unto him, Sir, come down ere my child die.50 Jesus saith unto him, Go thy way; thy son liveth. And the man believed the word that Jesus had spoken unto him, and he went his way.51 And as he was now going down, his servants met him, and told him, saying, Thy son liveth.52 Then enquired he of them the hour when he began to amend. And they said unto him, Yesterday at the seventh hour the fever left him.”

We often associate unclean spirits coming in subjection unto the authority of the Father but I find it amazing that the flesh has to obey as well. Illness can be natural, no doubt about that. Natural sicknesses may require natural remedies but it definitely still needs the Lord’s divine intervention. We typically look for physicians to figure out problems with our bodies then we expect them to fix it but when every type of medication and/or treatment is unable to get things back in order, we tend to feel discouraged. We sometimes put too much into man and because of that we feel hopeless when the knowledge doctors gained in medical school runs dry. Hold tight to the fact that everything must come into subjection unto Him. As shared in another article, after being in the hospital I talked with a doctor and they had prescribed me medicine for nausea but since I hadn’t experienced any nausea and didn’t want to waste money, I did not fill the prescription. Of course it is the doctor’s duty to cover all bases and with nausea being a symptom, he wanted to offer me treatment for it. However, I wasn’t too worried since I hadn’t had any trouble with it up to that point. Then I went home and went to sleep but not for long. Maybe 2 or 3 in the morning I was awakened by the most painful and urgent feeling of nausea that I have ever experienced in my life. I said to myself, “Now you can cry and you can become angry or you can call on the name of Jesus and have faith that He will answer your call.” I decided that I would take that as an opportunity to exercise my faith so I closed my eyes and said, “Whether this illness be natural or spiritual, I demand you to come into submission unto the name of Jesus. I don’t know where you came from but I am telling you to leave. I have no power of my own but I am demanding you to bow down in the name of Jesus because I will have peace. My Savior died so that I may have peace,” and when I opened my eyes again it was later in the day and I had no discomfort whatsoever.

Luke 13: 11-13 (KJV): 11 And, behold, there was a woman which had a spirit of infirmity eighteen years, and was bowed together, and could in no wise lift up herself.12 And when Jesus saw her, he called her to him, and said unto her, Woman, thou art loosed from thine infirmity.13 And he laid his hands on her: and immediately she was made straight, and glorified God.”

The passage above gives us a clear indication that the woman had an infirmity that was spiritually inspired. The passage does not specify which type of infirmity but knowing that there is a such thing as a spirit of infirmity is enough for me to know a spirit of infirmity is worth praying against. When we think of deliverance we often think of deliverance from sexual immorality, drugs, idolatry etc. but apparently Christ can deliver us from illnesses as well. Certainly every illness isn’t spiritually driven but that is a base that should be covered because we would be surprised about things that don’t have to be.

John 9:1-3 (KJV): “And as Jesus passed by, he saw a man which was blind from his birth.2 And his disciples asked him, saying, Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind?3 Jesus answered, Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him.

When someone becomes sick it is often that they question what they did wrong and how they can make it better. Being ill is typically viewed as being punishment, something that only falls upon the wicked and unrighteous. However, this passage above in John illustrates that sometimes what we view as being unfortunate can fall upon someone just so that God can manifest His mighty works in the situation. We can become so consumed with trying to blame someone or throwing a pity party for ourselves that we miss when God could very well be using us to show others (and ourselves) just how much of a loving, powerful, and righteous God He is.We always need to have a healthy perspective so we must pray and ask for His perspective. Psalm 119:71 (KJV): 71 It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.” Sometimes being sick or afflicted in any way can keep us humble, desperately seeking the Lord, and looking to Him for all things. In simple terms, the Lord can put us on our backs just so that we can look up to Him. Even if Satan afflicts a saint, it is still while the Lord’s will be done.

Psalm 30:2 (KJV):2 O Lord my God, I cried unto thee, and thou hast healed me.”

It is no secret that in everything we do, we must have faith. Health issues will try our faith, especially if we become desperate for “wholeness” and we begin to believe that God has lost His efficiency. It can be a battle if you truly want to believe the report of God but the report of the doctor appears to be more promising but sides with the report of Satan. Living in a natural world we tend to look for natural and instant gratifying answers, especially when it comes to self. God has given us doctors on Earth but He is the top physician, He is our Healer. Setting an appointment with a doctor, getting blood work done, and have annual examinations may seem like exercising every possible avenue known in the medical world but when we get down at the feet of our Father and cry out to Him from the bottom of His throne, that’s when things begin to change. I am not taking away the skill of doctors, I actually admire it, but we must never forget that they only know what they know because of what God shared and that man will forever have limits. Walking in shattered faith will set one up for doom from the very beginning.

Mark 6:5-6 (KJV):5 And he could there do no mighty work, save that he laid his hands upon a few sick folk, and healed them.6 And he marvelled because of their unbelief. And he went round about the villages, teaching.”

Though Christ wanted to perform miracles and heal the sick (both physically and spiritually), He could only do but so much because of those who did not believe! We would be surprised to know how many blessings haven’t been released simply because we didn’t believe. God could be ready to give to us but when we reject the power thereof, we could remain without and as a result we can become angry and frustrated at Him. Matthew 15:28 (KJV):28 Then Jesus answered and said unto her, O woman, great is thy faith: be it unto thee even as thou wilt. And her daughter was made whole from that very hour.” Having faith in God and His mighty works is enough to even have someone else healed! The unyielding faith of this woman was sufficient enough that Jesus healed her daughter within the same hour. As the Body of Christ we need to make sure that we are playing our part in prayerfully assisting those who are afflicted. Our faith and our prayers extend way beyond ourselves and our family.

Psalm 41:3 (KJV): 3 The Lord will strengthen him upon the bed of languishing: thou wilt make all his bed in his sickness.”

I am not saying that every affliction or health issue can be quenched by our doing. However, I am saying that we must stand strong believing the promises of God while also asking Him to guide our next move. We cannot run from death or disease because it will happen, it is life. One of the only things promised in life is death and for that very reason, we ought to have His perspective on it. But once knowing and accepting all of this we too must be aware and available to pray for ourselves and intercede for others in their time of need. Even if their situation is natural and taking place according to the plans of God, we can at the very least pray for peace. Pray for endurance. Pray for faith. I personally don’t know how someone can go through disparities without knowing God. Health issues can come accompanied with financial stress, infidelity in the home, unrighteous coping mechanisms etc. Life can be challenging for a believer, one with actual power and authority in the name of Jesus, so it is clear that a sinner doesn’t truly have any type of hope.

The last time I was in the hospital the doctor instructed that I receive an ultrasound. Originally I was fine, watching baseball without a worry in the world. But as soon as I saw the sonographer come in to get me, I panicked automatically. During the ultrasound I was tense, as I am sure anyone would have been able to notice. As an attempt to relax me the sonographer began to ask me what I wanted to be when I “grow up.” My only response was, “Okay, this may sound cliché but it is true. I don’t know what I want to do. I am still waiting for God to tell me.” The woman laughed and I said, “Wait, no really. I won’t know until He tells me. I am waiting for His leading.” I had no idea what was funny until this woman walked away from me to grab her Bible study book. In summary, my ultrasound took about 20 minutes longer than usual because we were in the room talking about the goodness of the Lord. Then as the sonographer began to take me out of the room I said, “Will you be honest with me? Does everything look okay?” The woman responded, “Everything looks fine to me but the doctor will take a look as well.” I am sure my face let the woman know that I was still very concerned. She looked at me again and said, “Everything will be fine but even if things appeared to be bad, you have to trust and have faith in God. You have to believe that He will take care of you and that nothing will happen to you that He hasn’t allowed.” I leaned back in the hospital bed and I closed my eyes, asking God to help me believe. Asking God to help me believe Him.

Isaiah 53:4-5 (KJV): 4 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.”

Faithful Is He

Ephesians 6:16 (KJV): 16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.”

For those that read Wilderness Anyone? it was clear that I was nervous, anxious, and a bit fearful about entering the biggest wilderness experience of my life thus far. I can honestly say that a lot of healthy progression took place while I was abroad. The Lord has and is doing a mighty work and though I was hesitant, I thank Him for doing for me what I didn’t have the heart or mind to do for myself.

Acts 15:8-9 (KJV): 8And God, which knoweth the hearts, bare them witness, giving them the Holy Ghost, even as he did unto us; And put no difference between us and them, purifying their hearts by faith.”

On May 19th, 2012 I flew back to America and on the flight leaving Copenhagen I found myself shedding as many tears as I had when I left America. The important thing is that crying on the plane leaving America in January was only a reflection of me not wanting to do what I knew I was supposed to do. However, the tears on the flight back to America were purely tears that encourages faith. I was crying because as I sat there and thought on how great God is to me, to us, I then realized that I had little faith.

2 Corinthians 4:13-14 (KJV): 13 We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak;14 Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you.”

I always said that I would hate for Jesus to say, “Oh you of little faith,” to me. From the first time I read verses about faith I agreed that I would try to have lots of faith so I would never have to hear Him say that, at least to me. Within the past 4 months I have learned that we can sometimes have more faith in and for others than we have for ourselves or in Christ. It almost seems natural to preach it and receive it in your minds than it is to live it and believe it in your hearts, especially when faced with adversity. While riding on a plane that cut through the clouds faster than my eyes could capture I began to understand that doing work for the Kingdom and my walk with Christ as a whole is absolutely nothing without faith. We become void vessels when we do not have faith because all of Christ’s works and miracles were done based on the faith He has in the Father. Matthew 8:26 (KJV): 26 And he saith unto them, Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith? Then he arose, and rebuked the winds and the sea; and there was a great calm.” I can know and understand the Bible but if I am without faith, that is a series of red flags. If I am going to continue this journey with my Groom, I must believe, obey, and love. I must have faith.

Hebrews 11:6 (KJV): But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”

Many of us make promises but less of us remember that God is the only Promise Keeper. Before going to Europe God didn’t make many promises to me personally but He did tell me to hold on to the promises in His Word, which assured me that in summary, He would take care of me. He never specifically told me what He was going to do but He did tell me to trust and to believe. My wilderness experience (which may not necessarily be over but in a different location) has been an interesting one with many, many trials and tribulations,which was expected. I won’t list them all here because we have to be careful of how we witness about the tests that God brings us through because it can quickly turn into complaining but know that whatever it is that you and I go through, He has control.

James 2:14 (KJV):14 What doth it profit, my brethren, though a man say he hath faith, and have not works? can faith save him?”

A couple of days after being in America I was diagnosed with a sickness that we are believing will pass sooner than later. I talked with a doctor and they had prescribed me medicine for nausea but since I hadn’t experienced any nausea and didn’t want to waste money, I did not fill the prescription. Of course it is the doctor’s duty to cover all bases and with nausea being a symptom, he wanted to offer me treatment for it. However, I wasn’t too worried since I hadn’t had any trouble with it up to that point. Then I went home and went to sleep but not for long. Maybe 2 or 3 in the morning I was awakened by the most painful and urgent feeling of nausea that I have ever experienced in my life. I said to myself, “Now you can cry and you can become angry or you can call on the name of Jesus and have faith that He will answer your call.” I decided that I would take that as an opportunity to exercise my faith so I closed my eyes and said, “Whether this illness be natural or spiritual, I demand you to come into submission unto the name of Jesus. I don’t know where you came from but I am telling you to leave. I have no power of my own but I am demanding you to bow down in the name of Jesus because I will have peace. My Savior died so that I may have peace,” and when I opened my eyes again it was later in the day and I had no discomfort whatsoever. Walking in that faith allowed me to rest in perfect peace and I didn’t even know it until it was time for me to go on with my day. All situations in our lives won’t go this way and it isn’t necessarily a matter of medication but more so about stepping out on faith. I could have been super drugged up, full with as many drugs as my body would handle and still remain in pain and shattered. I had to hold on to His promises and though we don’t always know how, when, or why He will do things, we have to believe that He will take care of us.

Ephesians 2:8-9 (KJV): For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:Not of works, lest any man should boast.”

Gaining and maintaining faith isn’t always as easy as it may seem. After reading the mighty works that can be done from simply having faith the size of a mustard seed I ran to google “mustard seed” so I could see the true size. My jaw dropped because I only imagined that it would be easy to have faith bigger than the size of a mustard seed! But again, God uses a mustard seed surely to emphasize how rich faith is yet hard to come by. God could have said faith the size of a watermelon or turkey could move mountains but with Him knowing the struggle we endure to receive, act on, and live by faith He didn’t set the standards low but He does set them realistically. God is a just God and if He only asks for a mustard seed of something then we automatically know that it may not be easy but it is possible and it is rewarding.

Hebrews 11:1 (KJV): “11 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

We must keep in mind that we are spiritual beings living in a natural world and because of that we are conditioned to understand things naturally. Faith encourages us to stand on the things that we cannot see or (yet see) with confidence and authority and I want to encourage everyone to make that leap. I am learning myself and I pray that I continue to learn. Faith isn’t an option, it is essential in our relationship with Christ. Again, living in faith may not be the easiest thing but if you have a heart to please God and you believe that without faith it is impossible to please God, it is a goal worth maintaining.

2 Corinthians 5:6-7 (KJV):Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord:For we walk by faith, not by sight.”

Lord, I come to You asking You to simply give me faith. I had no idea how difficult it would be but thanks to Your careful guidance, it is beginning to make more sense. There are a lot of adversities that we will experience in life but we must stand strong in You while allowing faith to be our source of life. If we want to be Your servants, we must operate in Your faith. If we want to perform Your miracles, we must exercise Your faith. If we want to believe Your truth then Father we must receive Your faith. Lord, You know each of us and what we need to fulfill the plans You have for our lives. Please lead us, You know what we don’t know but regardless, we must never let go of our faith. During troubles and during peace. Whether it be concerning health or finances or love or our next step in life, help us believe. Not faith in ourselves but in You, our dear Lord. Amen.

Matthew 17:20 (KJV):20 And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.”

Excuse Your Toes, Please!

Mark 16:15 (KJV): “And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.”

When I first received salvation I loved talking about the Gospel to anyone who would listen. I quickly learned how divine His truth is and I immediately recognized that a conversation about the Lord surpasses any other conversation piece that I could ever try to muster up. As time went on I became nervous to talk to people about the Lord if I even suspected that they weren’t believers. I became concerned about if they would think that I was crazy or in simple terms, that I was stepping on their toes. As mentioned in the article, “How Can You Speak In Tongues And Not Speak To Your Neighbor,” the Lord brought to my attention that I can have many conversations but what do my conversations say about me? What do my conversations say about Him? The one who I claim to be an avid follower of. God never insists that we force the Gospel down someone’s throat but it is no secret that, “For of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh (Luke 6:45).” Constantly just “shooting the breeze” out of fear of rejection can be the very thing that prevents a person from hearing a word from the Lord.

2 Timothy 3:16 (KJV):  All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness.”

A few months ago I found myself with people who were sharing how they felt about homosexuality. The conversation quickly turned into a, “Wait, is it normal? It is abnormal? Where does it stem from? Are people truly born homosexual?” I stood there, nervous to share the truth that God had shared with me. I didn’t want anyone to think I was crazy or going too deep when I shared that homosexuality is spiritual, it is abnormal, but that still doesn’t mean that someone cannot be set free. I decided that I wasn’t going to say anything and keep quiet during the conversation…until. The Holy Spirit began to convict me. The only thing I could hear was, “So you are just going to rest there and not share the Truth that I have shared with you? You know the Truth. Are you going to keep quiet?” I mentioned that I knew homosexuality was spiritual and an abomination to God. The group of people gave me a head nod and got quiet as they thought on the power of His truth. It was then that I realized that I couldn’t keep quiet anymore, I had to speak Truth even during moments of discomfort. Hosea 4:6 (KJV): “My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge; because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children. ” It is one thing to reject the Truth and it is something completely different to be without knowledge of the Truth. 

As the Body of Christ we have a specific job to do. 1 Corinthians 1:17 (KJV): “For Christ sent me not to baptize, but to preach the gospel: not with wisdom of words, lest the cross of Christ should be made of none effect.” I don’t find it a mistake that since the story shared above, I have been faced with conversations concerning the Truth with atheists, Catholics, Jehovah’s Witnesses etc. The most difficult was the conversations about the false doctrine of Jehovah’s Witnesses because the individual is a very dear and cherished person in my life. Before I continue, my conversations about the Gospel are never focused on which denomination is better than another. We are supposed to be One in Christ. If we believe and read the same Bible and the same Truth, where is the discrepancy? It isn’t a matter of interpretation because the Holy Spirit bears witness of Himself. Even if the Spirit told three people three separate truths, He will bear witness and the understanding will be accepted and appreciated by each of them.

It is important to take note of how much emphasis the Father puts on His people not serving other gods and giving attention to strange nations.Deuteronomy 18:9-12 (KJV): “When thou art come into the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee, thou shalt not learn to do after the abominations of those nations.10 There shall not be found among you any one that maketh his son or his daughter to pass through the fire, or that useth divination, or an observer of times, or an enchanter, or a witch.11 Or a charmer, or a consulter with familiar spirits, or a wizard, or a necromancer.12 For all that do these things are an abomination unto the Lord: and because of these abominations the Lord thy God doth drive them out from before thee.” We also know that nothing new is under the sun (Ecclesiastes 1:9). These same strange gods mentioned in the old testament are the same strange religions we witness today. Galations 1:6-9 (KJV): I marvel that ye are so soon removed from him that called you into the grace of Christ unto another gospel:Which is not another; but there be some that trouble you, and would pervert the gospel of Christ.But though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed.As we said before, so say I now again, if any man preach any other gospel unto you than that ye have received, let him be accursed.” We cannot go forth preaching the Gospel without knowing, believing, and standing firm in the fact that there is only one true Gospel. The Bible tells us that there is another gospel, a false one.

1 Thessalonians 2:3-12 (KJV): “For our exhortation was not of deceit, nor of uncleanness, nor in guile:But as we were allowed of God to be put in trust with the gospel, even so we speak; not as pleasing men, but God, which trieth our hearts.For neither at any time used we flattering words, as ye know, nor a cloke of covetousness; God is witness:Nor of men sought we glory, neither of you, nor yet of others, when we might have been burdensome, as the apostles of Christ.But we were gentle among you, even as a nurse cherisheth her children:So being affectionately desirous of you, we were willing to have imparted unto you, not the gospel of God only, but also our own souls, because ye were dear unto us.”For ye remember, brethren, our labour and travail: for labouring night and day, because we would not be chargeable unto any of you, we preached unto you the gospel of God.10 Ye are witnesses, and God also, how holily and justly and unblameably we behaved ourselves among you that believe:11 As ye know how we exhorted and comforted and charged every one of you, as a father doth his children,12 That ye would walk worthy of God, who hath called you unto his kingdom and glory.”

Before we even think to begin to do the works of God we must be sure that we are walking and working in His Spirit and that we are seeking to please Him. A sinner cannot save a sinner so the light of Christ that dwells within us must be proclaimed. In everything we do, we must do it in love remaining humble as we never lose sight of the fact that none of us are without sin and thus are unqualified to cast the first stone (John 8:7).With Christ being the example, we must adopt the dichotomy of expressing His unyielding love while still addressing sin for what it is. We ought to only speak when He tells us to speak but when we do, we cannot speak in fear. As we go out to be vessels of the Lord we must be able to tell anyone that you can only get to the Father through the Son (John 14:6). Again, we must keep in mind that Christ came not for the whole but for the sick and that the ONLY reason we can witness is because we were once sick too (Luke 5:31). Preaching the Gospel doesn’t mean that you won’t be ridiculed or persecuted; expect that you will. However, the Bible tells us that His people are dying because of the lack of knowledge. It is wonderful to think that one day we can come before the Lord with knowing that we did what He told us to do, without having any blood on our hands. Just think, what if no one preached the Gospel to you? God is the only one who can draw someone nigh but never forget that He has His people planting seeds, watering, and nourishing them along the way.

Father, we come to You right now as we humbly ask that You use us. We do not know the plans that You have for us but please help us submit and be courageous in You. Your people are dying because of the lack of knowledge. Your people are hurting and rejecting You. Your people are in bondage and held captive by Satan. While some people deliberately try to find ways to pervert the Gospel, others fall victim simply because they seek to find You but fall short because they believe the lies of the world. You know Your people and how to reach them and we ask right now that we are available for Your use. Please help us to not melt at the anger and violence that we may experience for proclaiming Your truth. If it doesn’t align with the Word please help us to say it and not become crippled because we don’t want to offend. Lord we know that the Truth only offends the unrighteous. We are only Your messengers Lord since we did not create the Gospel nor did we give it life or power. Regardless of the religion, regardless of the situation, please help us to speak when You tell us to speak and be quiet when You tell us to be quiet. We must not back down because You are with us and You will help us in our time of trouble.  Please help us to not be offended because You are truth. Satan and his demons should be offended. Remind us that people shouldn’t be offended by You but by Satan and the killing, stealing, and destroying he is doing in lives. Lord, we ask that You give us the courage and love to go out and preach the Gospel so that Your people no longer die because of the lack of knowledge. Amen.

2 Corinthians 2:14-16 (KJV): 14 Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place.15 For we are unto God a sweet savour of Christ, in them that are saved, and in them that perish:16 To the one we are the savour of death unto death; and to the other the savour of life unto life. And who is sufficient for these things?”

God Shares Thoughts

Proverbs 3:7 (KJV): Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.”

My entire life I have wanted to be smart. Of course as a child I did not really know what it meant to be wise but I was familiar with what it meant to be smart. If I didn’t know before, I learned quickly when I caught on to power of grades, tests, and school. Fortunately, I have always loved to read and talk about things that were deeper than gossip and small talk. From what I can remember, I always liked to talk with adults simply because I felt like they had knowledge to offer. If I didn’t know what something was, I asked. Yep, I was that kid with a million and one questions. I suppose this desire for knowledge (after the leading of the Holy Spirit) is what drove me to become a Psychology major and Philosophy minor. I do not believe and receive everything I learn as my the Father is my first teacher and His word is my standard of Truth. Psychologist and especially Philosophers are typically known to be very intelligent and the deepest of the deep. However, to my surprise after coming to know God, I learned that worldly knowledge isn’t deep at all.

Proverbs 1:7 (KJV): The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.”

When I was first saved I heard someone mention praying that the Father give them supernatural wisdom, knowledge, truth, and understanding. I never thought to ask God for that because I thought I was in school to gain knowledge and that wisdom would come with age. But the missing term was supernatural. I was so excited to pray my first few weeks after salvation that I was willing to try this new prayer, just to give me another reason to talk with my Beloved (See I was still treating God like a business partner. We never need a “reason” to talk with Him). Anyway, it seemed like overnight that He answered my prayers. Two things began to happen. My studies became super easy and the Bible became more understandable than ever. I was half disappointed that what I thought to be deep wasn’t deep at all but still very thankful that I had then recognized that God alone is deep AND He gave me the tools to understand the true deepness of His being. James 1:5 (KJV): If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.” Similarly to the understanding of the Word I mentioned in the article Saturate My Mind, the message of the Bible became revealed to me. Certainly my prayer for His wisdom and knowledge will never end because I still have so much to learn but I can honestly say that I have come a long way. James 3:17 (KJV): 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy.” As I sat in my Psychology and Philosophy courses these past few semesters I began to wonder how these authors/scholars/whatever you want to call them could understand everything but the Bible. Even before I began studying Psychology and Philosophy I was a Biology major with a Pre-med concentration and I saw the same pattern, majority of the scientists I had come in contact with understood what seemed to be everything…until it came to the Gospel. Wow.  Thank God, I was on to something. Proverbs 13:10 (KJV): 10 Only by pride cometh contention: but with the well advised is wisdom.” The true wisdom that we all seek can only come from God! We must be advised by Him. I find it very unfortunate that some individuals find themselves on the road to Truth but become crippled by some type of detour. Even if someone believes 99.9% of the Truth, that 1% of error makes their entire belief untrue. It doesn’t take much to confuse or contaminate. We have to accept His whole truth, not pick and choose. That 1% is definitely something that the Lord can address and change but once our mind has been poisoned by the lies of the world and ultimately Satan, our “wisdom” becomes perverted. Proverbs 19:20 (KJV): 20 Hear counsel, and receive instruction, that thou mayest be wise in thy latter end.” These detours or curve balls that Satan has become so good at presenting is the root of many of the divisions within the Body of ChristDon’t be surprised to know that false doctrine extracts some of what we all know to be true. I have noticed that in some doctrines, specifically the Jehovah’s Witnesses, tend to insert some truth right before false doctrine is slid in as well. Satan has been around for much longer than we have and if he can feed us enough truth to get us hooked, he can then sneak lies between cracks, playing on ignorance. I spoke with someone who used to study with Jehovah’s Witnesses and though they mentioned the Trinity and did not reject the power thereof, they also did not realize that the Jehovah’s Witnesses believe that Jesus is Michael the Archangel and that they did not believe in Hell. The pieces of Truth caught her attention but the lies and confusion corrupted it. As humans we never like to be wrong, we never like to “not know.” This is what drives individuals to make up stuff, trying to make sense of only something He can help us understand. Proverbs 15:31 (KJV): 31 The ear that heareth the reproof of life abideth among the wise.”

I often speak with a lot of people who state how wise they think I am at such a young age. I want to clarify that I do not have any wisdom of my own. I pray to God each day asking that He give me supernatural wisdom, knowledge, truth, and understanding. It isn’t about age, it is about knowing Jesus. Proverbs 29:11 (KJV): 11 A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepeth it in till afterwards.” The Father has no respecter of persons and for that very reason He wants to bless each of His children with the wisdom that they ask for. Psalm 37:30 (KJV): 30 The mouth of the righteous speaks wisdom,And his tongue talks of justice.” I had a dream once. There was a black screen with white words that read, “Bachelor’s degree. Master’s degree. Doctorate degree,” and in the background I kept hearing a voice say, “You don’t need a degree to believe.” Now this dream could mean many things but I simply want to address that my belief in the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit is where my wisdom comes from. I had to learn that my supernatural (only true type of wisdom) can come from God alone, not a degree. 1 Corinthians 1:30 (KJV):25 Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men.”

The Bible puts a huge emphasis on wisdom as the Father specifically identifies Solomon’s request for wisdom when Solomon could have asked for anything.  2 Chronicles 1:10-12 (KJV): 10 Give me now wisdom and knowledge, that I may go out and come in before this people: for who can judge this thy people, that is so great?11 And God said to Solomon, Because this was in thine heart, and thou hast not asked riches, wealth, or honour, nor the life of thine enemies, neither yet hast asked long life; but hast asked wisdom and knowledge for thyself, that thou mayest judge my people, over whom I have made thee king:12 Wisdom and knowledge is granted unto thee; and I will give thee riches, and wealth, and honour, such as none of the kings have had that have been before thee, neither shall there any after thee have the like.” Now that is deep. Would I have asked God for wisdom before reading this passage? Probably not. Asking for wisdom isn’t something naturally in us to want. Our fallen nature is selfish and requests things that can only soothe the flesh. The desire to even want the wisdom from God is Holy Spirit inspired. If you want wisdom and understanding, just ask God. I know I do. Proverbs 16:16 (KJV): 16 How much better is it to get wisdom than gold! and to get understanding rather to be chosen than silver!”

I have forever grateful for God to share true wisdom with me, with us. I pray that the Holy Spirit writes these articles. I have no idea what to write because aside from the Father that dwells within, the Truth isn’t in me. My prayer is that He gives me a mind to understand. I often talk with people who are discouraged about not understanding the Gospel. First, it is important to recognize that none of us know or understand everything. No one knows the mind of God and if we knew everything, it is safe to assume that we would indeed become boastful, trying to match the intellect of the Father. Isaiah 55:9 (KJV): “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” I pray that we all earnestly and humbly ask God to give us wisdom. We aren’t deep. God is deep. The Son is deep. The Holy Spirit is deep. The Gospel is deep. If we cannot understand that, we don’t understand anything. Do not be fooled by the false doctrine pushed by the world. There is a lot we can take from the world of academia but the Bible takes things to a whole new level. Sometimes it feels like within a second that the Holy Spirit has given me understanding. We have not because we ask not (James 4:2). Trying to “go deep” with the wrong spirit only makes us look foolish and confused. The Father and His understanding always makes sense, though that doesn’t mean it will always make sense to the world. I find comfort and hope in knowing that I can finally have the wisdom I always wanted and not by being in debt as I seek higher education. In times of needing wisdom, which is all of the time, the only thing I need to do is whisper a prayer to the Father asking, “God, may You share Your thoughts with me?” 

Proverbs 2:10-11 (KJV): 10 When wisdom entereth into thine heart, and knowledge is pleasant unto thy soul; 11 Discretion shall preserve thee, understanding shall keep thee.”

Your Will, Not Mine

Proverbs 3:5-6 (KJV): 5Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”

As I talked with a dear Sister in the Lord today I thought about what it means to truly walk in the will of God, daily. I mean, we sometimes tend to think more about His will when things are big but what about every day life? What about walking in His will from the big to the small? From the serious to the causal?

Romans 12:2 (KJV): ” 2And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”


Hey, it is me again. I want to talk with You about me following Your will. I am learning to trust You concerning my career, my love life, and even about life’s challenges concerning finances and health. But You know, I have been thinking about my trust in You in my daily life. I want to offer myself as a living sacrifice to You. I want to trade the plans I have for today and the schedule I have created for Yours. Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV):11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” I never meant to make an agenda and simply fit You into it. I appreciate You renewing my mind because I know You are the reason why I even recognized my error. I want to state that I give You every second of my life, not just the big circumstances. I cannot give You issues concerning my socioeconomic status but try to appoint the revealing of my love life. You know I don’t mean to God. I have just been so used to doing things my way. From the depths of my heart, I surrender to You and Your perfect will. It may be easier said than done but I want to be both a hearer and a doer of Your word. You said that if I love You that I will keep Your commandments. Though Your commandments and instructions in the Bible are clear, I must not overlook the daily leading of the Holy Spirit as He speaks sometimes more often than I am in a position to hear. Help me to be more in tune with You Father. I give You my life to sculpt and mold, even if it is the complete opposite of what I have imagined. Even if Your will appears to seem impossible, unrealistic, intimidating, and even an inconvenience, help me to know that Your thoughts are not my thoughts. When I begin to think that I know something please remind me that I know nothing. I have to thank You for how wise You are. I am learning to stop questioning You and to just trust and thank You instead. 1 Thessalonians 5:18 (KJV): ” 18In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.” I could have never imagined the day that I could say this and genuinely mean it: Your will Father, not mine. I am naturally selfish, yes, but You are the perfect example of being selfless. Luke 22:42 (KJV): “Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.” Life is throwing me a lot of interesting turns and curves but I need to find refuge in You even if Your will takes me on a detour while on the path You have already planned. Why do I continue to act like I have some type of control? When I get ahead of myself please remind me that You knew me before the Earth was created. I am so foolish and You are so clever. How grateful I am to have You because otherwise I would clearly be a lost cause. I guess this prayer sparked a yearning in my heart because of the many questions that I do not have the answers to. I can’t even answer to what my day will consist of tomorrow but that is fine as I remember that You instruct us to not worry about tomorrow because today has its own troubles. Once upon a time I would try to have everything in what I thought was decently and in order but unless You are the Conductor, that was an unreasonable goal. From the clothes that I wear, to the places that I do, to the things that I pursue, I pray that You are in the midst. I have learned the hard way that You must approve and bless each step so that Your anointing may rest upon it. I want success and prosperity in Your name so yup, I am dropping my will. What do I know? I sometimes forget the day of the week so it is a good thing that I can find comfort in Your plan. I pray that You give me a mind to ask You about everything! I do not want to step out of Your will and spoil your gifts. Your gifts of life and salvation. I have come too far to fall short when Your mercy endures for me and the rest of Your children. I need my mind to be restructured so that everything I do is about You, not me. No room for pride. No room for rejection. No room for condemnation. No room for anything that isn’t of You. I guess I will get ready for bed now Lord. I simply wanted to tell You that I love You and that I want You to take control of my life. I want Your Holy Spirit to drive everything I do from my getting up to my going to sleep. I want to honor You as I humbly exercise Your power as Your vessel. I must have circumcised ears, eyes, and heart to receive You clearly. I want to move when You say move and I want to stay when You tell me to stay. When I accepted You into my heart I dropped mine for Yours. Please give me a mind to not go to man, including myself but instead please give me a burning desire to seek and furthermore fulfill Your perfect and divine plan. Amen.

Isaiah 58:11 (KJV): 11And the LORD shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.”