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Uncomfortable For Christ

2 Corinthians 3:5 (KJV): “Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think any thing as of ourselves; but our sufficiency is of God.”

While studying abroad I took a Biomedical Ethics course and I absolutely loved it! I was able to concentrate on medicine and philosophical ethics at the very same time. During the course we focused a lot on the physician/patient relationship and a very important aspect was the competency of the doctor. Even after medical school physicians have the duty to remain abreast on latest epidemics, resources, treatment etc. so that they may be able to provide the best care for their patients. I often think about the position I was in when the Lord began to draw me nigh and I remind myself that I need to have a growing passion and zeal for the Lord each day that I serve Him.

2 Peter 3:18 (KJV): 18 But grow in grace, and in the knowledge of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and for ever. Amen.”

I don’t know any Christians who consciously agree to become slack in their walk with the Lord. However, I believe that we all have been guilty of at some point saying, “Oh, I’ll read the Bible later,” “I’ve prayed about that a long time ago,” or, “I already know that.” While we may have prayed about something many weeks, months, years ago; that doesn’t mean the Father doesn’t want us to remain fervent in prayer about it. When we first receive salvation we are usually in bad condition and we yearn for God to give us peace, to give us a breakthrough but once some of our strongholds are broken reading the Bible can “Come later.” There is always  something to be aware of as a vessel for the Lord. Especially in the last days we are always to be aware of the seducing spirits and the anti-Christ, which are trying to exalt itself against the knowledge of Christ. How can we be His soldiers if we don’t know the tactics and resources of the enemy? How can we remain competent and effective for the Father if we are still holding onto yesterday’s prayers and this morning’s Bible reading? We have busy schedules, sure we do but as soon as we put life before God, we become ineffective. God isn’t overbearing and He allows us to take care of business as long as we have everything in its proper place. 

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18  (KJV): 16 Rejoice evermore.17 Pray without ceasing.18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.”

As humans we want to be comfortable. We love to be comfortable actually,which I know to be true for myself firsthand. I hate discomfort but I have learned from the 20 years that I have been alive that I have always performed best when I was uncomfortable. Moving to new locations and attending new schools usually produced some of the best aspects of my life. However, I also noticed that when I had done particularly well in a semester, the semester following became a “comfortable semester” and my grades showed. To anyone who watches the pattern of my grades will see that in the beginning I’m excited and do well then comfort sets in so I become LAZY, then I become anxious to do well again, then grades improve and the cycle continues. For many years I couldn’t understand why I would operate that way but I now understand that it is simply because I am human. Whether it be in the realm of academia or relationships, comfort is bad business. When entering a relationship individuals go the extra mile to woo the other individual but the moment they feel as if they are “accomplished” their comfort kicks in. This is when many individuals become upset with their spouses because they feel like they are no longer with the person that they married. Women sometimes marry a man who they believe will always send them flowers when appropriate and who will spend hours looking for the most extravagant restaurant to dine at. Men sometimes marry women believing that their wives will work effortlessly to surprise them with their favorite dish and who will spend hours in stores finding cute things to add to their well furnished homes. Certainly many things come with marriage and not all things will remain the same but I am simply mentioning how comfort and ultimately laziness can cause someone to quickly become disgusted. This goes way beyond spending money and eating but even concerning the small things, like saying I love you?

1 Peter 1:25 (KJV): “But the word of the Lord endureth for ever. And this is the word which by the gospel is preached unto you.”

If a couple can become exasperated because of comfort how do you think God feels? When we tell Him we no longer have to bind and rebuke that demon because we are “Through with that?” The Bible tells us that Satan comes to tempt in seasons and while Christ has delivered many of us from many forms of bondage we should never stop praising Him nor should we believe that we are invincible. The moment we think we are humble it is then that we have lost it. We should be confident and rest assured in His deliverance but we also should never be comfortable and let down our guard. We should never be so holy that we cannot take constructive criticism or be open to hear a word from a brother or sister in the Lord. Scripture makes it clear that the journey with Christ requires us to be competent each day, each hour, each minute, each second.We need to grow in His glory daily and the only way we can do that is if we constantly thirst for His living water.

Luke 9:23 (KJV): 23 And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.”

Whenever I read a verse and I see something that mentions daily or every I try to make a mental note of it. When I received salvation I wasn’t sure how often I should pray a certain prayer or enter His gates with praise. How often should I thank Him for deliverance? How often do I need to read the Word? When someone asks me a question? How often should I pray and talk to the Lord? Every chance I get.

Lamentations 3:22-23 (KJV): 22 It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.”

We are called to be the salt of the Earth but if our salt loses its savour, what can we preserve? Satan is always lurking and sin is always knocking at our doors. How can we stand it without constantly renewing our minds? The life of a Christian is dangerous because if it weren’t then we wouldn’t need the Father and His protection. How can we be vessels if we leave our crosses at home? God tells us to pick up our cross daily; it is no good in our attic. We are to be living testimonies. The Lord’s work in and through us doesn’t stop when we get saved, it is simply that it then becomes alive. I can tell all of you about the story of my salvation but I too have stories up to this day about the mighty works of God. The Father is always prompt and ready to do work. God always knows about our current situation and He is always a step ahead of us, why are we still trying to identify with yesterday? The same way we find refuge in the Lord’s competency, we too need to offer Him our lives as a living sacrifice so that we may be competent and faithful in Him. Not that we can do that on our own, as we already agreed that we are naturally lazy individuals. Too much danger to be comfortable. Too much work to be done to be comfortable. Too much praise to give to be comfortable. Too big of a God to serve to be comfortable. While I tend to lean toward comfort by nature, I am willing to be uncomfortable for Christ. God takes us from glory to glory but while that journey takes place we must earnestly pray that our competency in Christ doesn’t get lost in translation.

Romans 12:2 (KJV): And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”

Father, we thank You for our salvation. We come to You asking that You may keep us on our toes, always finding ways to better please You. We are naturally lazy beings, not wanting to remain uncomfortable. However, our walk with You is important and we are willing to be uncomfortable so that we can produce Your fruit. Salt without savour is good for nothing other than to be trampled underfoot. You have been too good to us and You never deserve lukewarm vessels. You were never lukewarm to us. When we need You, You’re there. When we call, You answer. Lord, please help us stop sending You to voicemail because we think we know “the message You’ll leave.” Please allow us to pray against all sins and all wickedness in high places because while You are constantly delivering us, Satan and his angels are always trying to find ways to bind us again. When one demon is gone another is waiting to be addressed. When one battle is won another is waiting to be fought. We are Your soldiers Lord, please train us to keep our boots on and our guns aimed while in war; even after a win. There is no place for feelings in the Kingdom and “feeling” strong in the Lord and “feeling” like we are past that point are not attitudes we should have. We should always look for ways to better go toward the mark for the prize of God that we have been called to in Christ Jesus. Amen.

Matthew 5:13 (KJV):1Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.”

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Faithful Is He

Ephesians 6:16 (KJV): 16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.”

For those that read Wilderness Anyone? it was clear that I was nervous, anxious, and a bit fearful about entering the biggest wilderness experience of my life thus far. I can honestly say that a lot of healthy progression took place while I was abroad. The Lord has and is doing a mighty work and though I was hesitant, I thank Him for doing for me what I didn’t have the heart or mind to do for myself.

Acts 15:8-9 (KJV): 8And God, which knoweth the hearts, bare them witness, giving them the Holy Ghost, even as he did unto us; And put no difference between us and them, purifying their hearts by faith.”

On May 19th, 2012 I flew back to America and on the flight leaving Copenhagen I found myself shedding as many tears as I had when I left America. The important thing is that crying on the plane leaving America in January was only a reflection of me not wanting to do what I knew I was supposed to do. However, the tears on the flight back to America were purely tears that encourages faith. I was crying because as I sat there and thought on how great God is to me, to us, I then realized that I had little faith.

2 Corinthians 4:13-14 (KJV): 13 We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak;14 Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you.”

I always said that I would hate for Jesus to say, “Oh you of little faith,” to me. From the first time I read verses about faith I agreed that I would try to have lots of faith so I would never have to hear Him say that, at least to me. Within the past 4 months I have learned that we can sometimes have more faith in and for others than we have for ourselves or in Christ. It almost seems natural to preach it and receive it in your minds than it is to live it and believe it in your hearts, especially when faced with adversity. While riding on a plane that cut through the clouds faster than my eyes could capture I began to understand that doing work for the Kingdom and my walk with Christ as a whole is absolutely nothing without faith. We become void vessels when we do not have faith because all of Christ’s works and miracles were done based on the faith He has in the Father. Matthew 8:26 (KJV): 26 And he saith unto them, Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith? Then he arose, and rebuked the winds and the sea; and there was a great calm.” I can know and understand the Bible but if I am without faith, that is a series of red flags. If I am going to continue this journey with my Groom, I must believe, obey, and love. I must have faith.

Hebrews 11:6 (KJV): But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”

Many of us make promises but less of us remember that God is the only Promise Keeper. Before going to Europe God didn’t make many promises to me personally but He did tell me to hold on to the promises in His Word, which assured me that in summary, He would take care of me. He never specifically told me what He was going to do but He did tell me to trust and to believe. My wilderness experience (which may not necessarily be over but in a different location) has been an interesting one with many, many trials and tribulations,which was expected. I won’t list them all here because we have to be careful of how we witness about the tests that God brings us through because it can quickly turn into complaining but know that whatever it is that you and I go through, He has control.

James 2:14 (KJV):14 What doth it profit, my brethren, though a man say he hath faith, and have not works? can faith save him?”

A couple of days after being in America I was diagnosed with a sickness that we are believing will pass sooner than later. I talked with a doctor and they had prescribed me medicine for nausea but since I hadn’t experienced any nausea and didn’t want to waste money, I did not fill the prescription. Of course it is the doctor’s duty to cover all bases and with nausea being a symptom, he wanted to offer me treatment for it. However, I wasn’t too worried since I hadn’t had any trouble with it up to that point. Then I went home and went to sleep but not for long. Maybe 2 or 3 in the morning I was awakened by the most painful and urgent feeling of nausea that I have ever experienced in my life. I said to myself, “Now you can cry and you can become angry or you can call on the name of Jesus and have faith that He will answer your call.” I decided that I would take that as an opportunity to exercise my faith so I closed my eyes and said, “Whether this illness be natural or spiritual, I demand you to come into submission unto the name of Jesus. I don’t know where you came from but I am telling you to leave. I have no power of my own but I am demanding you to bow down in the name of Jesus because I will have peace. My Savior died so that I may have peace,” and when I opened my eyes again it was later in the day and I had no discomfort whatsoever. Walking in that faith allowed me to rest in perfect peace and I didn’t even know it until it was time for me to go on with my day. All situations in our lives won’t go this way and it isn’t necessarily a matter of medication but more so about stepping out on faith. I could have been super drugged up, full with as many drugs as my body would handle and still remain in pain and shattered. I had to hold on to His promises and though we don’t always know how, when, or why He will do things, we have to believe that He will take care of us.

Ephesians 2:8-9 (KJV): For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:Not of works, lest any man should boast.”

Gaining and maintaining faith isn’t always as easy as it may seem. After reading the mighty works that can be done from simply having faith the size of a mustard seed I ran to google “mustard seed” so I could see the true size. My jaw dropped because I only imagined that it would be easy to have faith bigger than the size of a mustard seed! But again, God uses a mustard seed surely to emphasize how rich faith is yet hard to come by. God could have said faith the size of a watermelon or turkey could move mountains but with Him knowing the struggle we endure to receive, act on, and live by faith He didn’t set the standards low but He does set them realistically. God is a just God and if He only asks for a mustard seed of something then we automatically know that it may not be easy but it is possible and it is rewarding.

Hebrews 11:1 (KJV): “11 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

We must keep in mind that we are spiritual beings living in a natural world and because of that we are conditioned to understand things naturally. Faith encourages us to stand on the things that we cannot see or (yet see) with confidence and authority and I want to encourage everyone to make that leap. I am learning myself and I pray that I continue to learn. Faith isn’t an option, it is essential in our relationship with Christ. Again, living in faith may not be the easiest thing but if you have a heart to please God and you believe that without faith it is impossible to please God, it is a goal worth maintaining.

2 Corinthians 5:6-7 (KJV):Therefore we are always confident, knowing that, whilst we are at home in the body, we are absent from the Lord:For we walk by faith, not by sight.”


Lord, I come to You asking You to simply give me faith. I had no idea how difficult it would be but thanks to Your careful guidance, it is beginning to make more sense. There are a lot of adversities that we will experience in life but we must stand strong in You while allowing faith to be our source of life. If we want to be Your servants, we must operate in Your faith. If we want to perform Your miracles, we must exercise Your faith. If we want to believe Your truth then Father we must receive Your faith. Lord, You know each of us and what we need to fulfill the plans You have for our lives. Please lead us, You know what we don’t know but regardless, we must never let go of our faith. During troubles and during peace. Whether it be concerning health or finances or love or our next step in life, help us believe. Not faith in ourselves but in You, our dear Lord. Amen.

Matthew 17:20 (KJV):20 And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.”


God Shares Thoughts

Proverbs 3:7 (KJV): Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil.”

My entire life I have wanted to be smart. Of course as a child I did not really know what it meant to be wise but I was familiar with what it meant to be smart. If I didn’t know before, I learned quickly when I caught on to power of grades, tests, and school. Fortunately, I have always loved to read and talk about things that were deeper than gossip and small talk. From what I can remember, I always liked to talk with adults simply because I felt like they had knowledge to offer. If I didn’t know what something was, I asked. Yep, I was that kid with a million and one questions. I suppose this desire for knowledge (after the leading of the Holy Spirit) is what drove me to become a Psychology major and Philosophy minor. I do not believe and receive everything I learn as my the Father is my first teacher and His word is my standard of Truth. Psychologist and especially Philosophers are typically known to be very intelligent and the deepest of the deep. However, to my surprise after coming to know God, I learned that worldly knowledge isn’t deep at all.

Proverbs 1:7 (KJV): The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.”

When I was first saved I heard someone mention praying that the Father give them supernatural wisdom, knowledge, truth, and understanding. I never thought to ask God for that because I thought I was in school to gain knowledge and that wisdom would come with age. But the missing term was supernatural. I was so excited to pray my first few weeks after salvation that I was willing to try this new prayer, just to give me another reason to talk with my Beloved (See I was still treating God like a business partner. We never need a “reason” to talk with Him). Anyway, it seemed like overnight that He answered my prayers. Two things began to happen. My studies became super easy and the Bible became more understandable than ever. I was half disappointed that what I thought to be deep wasn’t deep at all but still very thankful that I had then recognized that God alone is deep AND He gave me the tools to understand the true deepness of His being. James 1:5 (KJV): If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.” Similarly to the understanding of the Word I mentioned in the article Saturate My Mind, the message of the Bible became revealed to me. Certainly my prayer for His wisdom and knowledge will never end because I still have so much to learn but I can honestly say that I have come a long way. James 3:17 (KJV): 17 But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality and without hypocrisy.” As I sat in my Psychology and Philosophy courses these past few semesters I began to wonder how these authors/scholars/whatever you want to call them could understand everything but the Bible. Even before I began studying Psychology and Philosophy I was a Biology major with a Pre-med concentration and I saw the same pattern, majority of the scientists I had come in contact with understood what seemed to be everything…until it came to the Gospel. Wow.  Thank God, I was on to something. Proverbs 13:10 (KJV): 10 Only by pride cometh contention: but with the well advised is wisdom.” The true wisdom that we all seek can only come from God! We must be advised by Him. I find it very unfortunate that some individuals find themselves on the road to Truth but become crippled by some type of detour. Even if someone believes 99.9% of the Truth, that 1% of error makes their entire belief untrue. It doesn’t take much to confuse or contaminate. We have to accept His whole truth, not pick and choose. That 1% is definitely something that the Lord can address and change but once our mind has been poisoned by the lies of the world and ultimately Satan, our “wisdom” becomes perverted. Proverbs 19:20 (KJV): 20 Hear counsel, and receive instruction, that thou mayest be wise in thy latter end.” These detours or curve balls that Satan has become so good at presenting is the root of many of the divisions within the Body of ChristDon’t be surprised to know that false doctrine extracts some of what we all know to be true. I have noticed that in some doctrines, specifically the Jehovah’s Witnesses, tend to insert some truth right before false doctrine is slid in as well. Satan has been around for much longer than we have and if he can feed us enough truth to get us hooked, he can then sneak lies between cracks, playing on ignorance. I spoke with someone who used to study with Jehovah’s Witnesses and though they mentioned the Trinity and did not reject the power thereof, they also did not realize that the Jehovah’s Witnesses believe that Jesus is Michael the Archangel and that they did not believe in Hell. The pieces of Truth caught her attention but the lies and confusion corrupted it. As humans we never like to be wrong, we never like to “not know.” This is what drives individuals to make up stuff, trying to make sense of only something He can help us understand. Proverbs 15:31 (KJV): 31 The ear that heareth the reproof of life abideth among the wise.”

I often speak with a lot of people who state how wise they think I am at such a young age. I want to clarify that I do not have any wisdom of my own. I pray to God each day asking that He give me supernatural wisdom, knowledge, truth, and understanding. It isn’t about age, it is about knowing Jesus. Proverbs 29:11 (KJV): 11 A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepeth it in till afterwards.” The Father has no respecter of persons and for that very reason He wants to bless each of His children with the wisdom that they ask for. Psalm 37:30 (KJV): 30 The mouth of the righteous speaks wisdom,And his tongue talks of justice.” I had a dream once. There was a black screen with white words that read, “Bachelor’s degree. Master’s degree. Doctorate degree,” and in the background I kept hearing a voice say, “You don’t need a degree to believe.” Now this dream could mean many things but I simply want to address that my belief in the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit is where my wisdom comes from. I had to learn that my supernatural (only true type of wisdom) can come from God alone, not a degree. 1 Corinthians 1:30 (KJV):25 Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men.”

The Bible puts a huge emphasis on wisdom as the Father specifically identifies Solomon’s request for wisdom when Solomon could have asked for anything.  2 Chronicles 1:10-12 (KJV): 10 Give me now wisdom and knowledge, that I may go out and come in before this people: for who can judge this thy people, that is so great?11 And God said to Solomon, Because this was in thine heart, and thou hast not asked riches, wealth, or honour, nor the life of thine enemies, neither yet hast asked long life; but hast asked wisdom and knowledge for thyself, that thou mayest judge my people, over whom I have made thee king:12 Wisdom and knowledge is granted unto thee; and I will give thee riches, and wealth, and honour, such as none of the kings have had that have been before thee, neither shall there any after thee have the like.” Now that is deep. Would I have asked God for wisdom before reading this passage? Probably not. Asking for wisdom isn’t something naturally in us to want. Our fallen nature is selfish and requests things that can only soothe the flesh. The desire to even want the wisdom from God is Holy Spirit inspired. If you want wisdom and understanding, just ask God. I know I do. Proverbs 16:16 (KJV): 16 How much better is it to get wisdom than gold! and to get understanding rather to be chosen than silver!”

I have forever grateful for God to share true wisdom with me, with us. I pray that the Holy Spirit writes these articles. I have no idea what to write because aside from the Father that dwells within, the Truth isn’t in me. My prayer is that He gives me a mind to understand. I often talk with people who are discouraged about not understanding the Gospel. First, it is important to recognize that none of us know or understand everything. No one knows the mind of God and if we knew everything, it is safe to assume that we would indeed become boastful, trying to match the intellect of the Father. Isaiah 55:9 (KJV): “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.” I pray that we all earnestly and humbly ask God to give us wisdom. We aren’t deep. God is deep. The Son is deep. The Holy Spirit is deep. The Gospel is deep. If we cannot understand that, we don’t understand anything. Do not be fooled by the false doctrine pushed by the world. There is a lot we can take from the world of academia but the Bible takes things to a whole new level. Sometimes it feels like within a second that the Holy Spirit has given me understanding. We have not because we ask not (James 4:2). Trying to “go deep” with the wrong spirit only makes us look foolish and confused. The Father and His understanding always makes sense, though that doesn’t mean it will always make sense to the world. I find comfort and hope in knowing that I can finally have the wisdom I always wanted and not by being in debt as I seek higher education. In times of needing wisdom, which is all of the time, the only thing I need to do is whisper a prayer to the Father asking, “God, may You share Your thoughts with me?” 

Proverbs 2:10-11 (KJV): 10 When wisdom entereth into thine heart, and knowledge is pleasant unto thy soul; 11 Discretion shall preserve thee, understanding shall keep thee.”


Your Will, Not Mine

Proverbs 3:5-6 (KJV): 5Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.”

As I talked with a dear Sister in the Lord today I thought about what it means to truly walk in the will of God, daily. I mean, we sometimes tend to think more about His will when things are big but what about every day life? What about walking in His will from the big to the small? From the serious to the causal?

Romans 12:2 (KJV): ” 2And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”

God,

Hey, it is me again. I want to talk with You about me following Your will. I am learning to trust You concerning my career, my love life, and even about life’s challenges concerning finances and health. But You know, I have been thinking about my trust in You in my daily life. I want to offer myself as a living sacrifice to You. I want to trade the plans I have for today and the schedule I have created for Yours. Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV):11For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” I never meant to make an agenda and simply fit You into it. I appreciate You renewing my mind because I know You are the reason why I even recognized my error. I want to state that I give You every second of my life, not just the big circumstances. I cannot give You issues concerning my socioeconomic status but try to appoint the revealing of my love life. You know I don’t mean to God. I have just been so used to doing things my way. From the depths of my heart, I surrender to You and Your perfect will. It may be easier said than done but I want to be both a hearer and a doer of Your word. You said that if I love You that I will keep Your commandments. Though Your commandments and instructions in the Bible are clear, I must not overlook the daily leading of the Holy Spirit as He speaks sometimes more often than I am in a position to hear. Help me to be more in tune with You Father. I give You my life to sculpt and mold, even if it is the complete opposite of what I have imagined. Even if Your will appears to seem impossible, unrealistic, intimidating, and even an inconvenience, help me to know that Your thoughts are not my thoughts. When I begin to think that I know something please remind me that I know nothing. I have to thank You for how wise You are. I am learning to stop questioning You and to just trust and thank You instead. 1 Thessalonians 5:18 (KJV): ” 18In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.” I could have never imagined the day that I could say this and genuinely mean it: Your will Father, not mine. I am naturally selfish, yes, but You are the perfect example of being selfless. Luke 22:42 (KJV): “Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done.” Life is throwing me a lot of interesting turns and curves but I need to find refuge in You even if Your will takes me on a detour while on the path You have already planned. Why do I continue to act like I have some type of control? When I get ahead of myself please remind me that You knew me before the Earth was created. I am so foolish and You are so clever. How grateful I am to have You because otherwise I would clearly be a lost cause. I guess this prayer sparked a yearning in my heart because of the many questions that I do not have the answers to. I can’t even answer to what my day will consist of tomorrow but that is fine as I remember that You instruct us to not worry about tomorrow because today has its own troubles. Once upon a time I would try to have everything in what I thought was decently and in order but unless You are the Conductor, that was an unreasonable goal. From the clothes that I wear, to the places that I do, to the things that I pursue, I pray that You are in the midst. I have learned the hard way that You must approve and bless each step so that Your anointing may rest upon it. I want success and prosperity in Your name so yup, I am dropping my will. What do I know? I sometimes forget the day of the week so it is a good thing that I can find comfort in Your plan. I pray that You give me a mind to ask You about everything! I do not want to step out of Your will and spoil your gifts. Your gifts of life and salvation. I have come too far to fall short when Your mercy endures for me and the rest of Your children. I need my mind to be restructured so that everything I do is about You, not me. No room for pride. No room for rejection. No room for condemnation. No room for anything that isn’t of You. I guess I will get ready for bed now Lord. I simply wanted to tell You that I love You and that I want You to take control of my life. I want Your Holy Spirit to drive everything I do from my getting up to my going to sleep. I want to honor You as I humbly exercise Your power as Your vessel. I must have circumcised ears, eyes, and heart to receive You clearly. I want to move when You say move and I want to stay when You tell me to stay. When I accepted You into my heart I dropped mine for Yours. Please give me a mind to not go to man, including myself but instead please give me a burning desire to seek and furthermore fulfill Your perfect and divine plan. Amen.

Isaiah 58:11 (KJV): 11And the LORD shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.”


But I am Tired!

Matthew 11:28-29 (KJV): “28Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.”

I used to think that I had the most baggage in the world. I was absolutely convinced that I had indulged in more sin than anyone I knew and anyone that I would ever meet. I just thank the good Lord that I was wrong but even if that was the case, His love and power goes deeper than any sin I had ever touched. I had baggage when I came to the Lord, no doubt about that!

Psalm 55:22 (KJV): “Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.”

I was encouraged to write this article after many weeks of stress of confusion. I am a worrier. I am not proud of it but it is true and I am working on it. I have noticed that the exact things I stress about after knowing the Lord are the same things I stressed about before knowing the Lord. Something isn’t right. Didn’t Christ die so that we could have abundant life? The issue isn’t Christ taking our burdens but more so us giving Him our burdens and more importantly, us giving our burdens to the Lord and NOT taking them back. Jeremiah 6:16 (KJV):16Thus saith the LORD, Stand ye in the ways, and see, and ask for the old paths, where is the good way, and walk therein, and ye shall find rest for your souls. But they said, We will not walk therein.”

I think we all know that baggage can come from every avenue and that different things can be considered baggage depending on the perspective. Our baggage can be sin. Our baggage can be current circumstances. Our baggage can be carried down 4 generations before us leaving the bags torn and covered with holes but still managing to hold curses and the anxieties that go along with them. Galatians 6:2(KJV):2Bear ye one another’s burdens, and so fulfil the law of Christ.” Regardless of the baggage, it is time to give them to God and to leave them there! We have baggage because we are human and if we didn’t get a chance to experience the burden of baggage then we would never get a chance to experience the sovereignty of God as He effortlessly takes our baggage and throws them in the sea of forgetfulness. Psalm 68:19 (KJV): 19Blessed be the Lord, who daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation. Selah.”

Sometimes when I think of the sins I struggle with I become plain ole tired. When I am encouraged to fight I only think about how tired I am of fighting. Like God, “Why can’t this be gone already? I am tired of this baggage.” The key is that if I am still struggling then that means my flesh still has it. God has nothing to do with anything that is unclean or unrighteous. If something unlike Him is part of our lives, it is because we have a tight grip on it. When God deals with something, He deals with it and He crushes it. When we hold on to baggage it is essentially trying to step on the toes of God and telling Him that we have the power and authority to deal with burdens–even more capable than Him. Isaiah 41:13 (KJV): 13For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.” We may not intentionally say this to God but when we refuse to give our burdens to Him or rest them at His feet and go to pick them up again, we are saying that we would rather have them. I am guilty of each of these things but it wasn’t intentional. In the world I was so used to operating with my flesh that I was conditioned to believe that I was in charge, making sure everything was being handled. I had no power then to deal with such heaviness and I don’t now but since I now know Christ, I am encouraged to do things the proper way. I now have the mind to pray to God giving Him my burdens regardless of what they are. I am in no position to handle (become weighed down) by them.1 John 5:3 (KJV): “3For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous.” I want to honor our Father by showing Him that I trust and have faith in the fact that He will work things out with my best interest in mind.

1 Peter 5:7 (KJV):7Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.”

Lord, please help me to cast all of my burdens unto You. I am tired of the place where I am in You and it is only because I am holding on to my burdens. I need to give these sins to You and not try to end them on my own. I need to give You my broken heart and allow you to mend every muscle, vein, and capillary connected. When I worry, stress, and panic because of anxiety I pray that You remind me of who You are rather than what my burdens are. I am sorry for trying to do Your job. I give You my secret sins. I give You my greatest fears. I give You the pain that runs too deep for me to even discuss. I give You all of my burdens Father. Please help me, I beg of You. Amen.

John 14:27 (KJV):27Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

A Dehydrated Well

John 4:13-14 (KJV): 13Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again:14But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.”

I love water. I love the way it tastes, the health benefits it offers, and how abundant the supply is. However, while on Spring Break vacation I was traveling so much that I was not able to consume as much water as my body is used to and my body recognized. I found myself light-headed, wanting to drink more than I wanted to eat, having numerous headaches, unable to sleep because of nausea, and experiencing weakness. I didn’t like this feeling so I made it my business to get water each time that I could, even if it resulted in me rushing to the restroom all throughout the night. It was worth it because I didn’t want to do damage to my body. My water intake needed to be monitored because it is clearly vital for our existence, as we know that our body is made up of more water than anything else.

John 7:38 (KJV): 38He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.”

Have you ever felt that God was far away? Like He is wasn’t as close as He used to be? The same way my flesh let me know that I physically needed water, my spirit has also alarmed me of my spiritual dehydration as well.

Isaiah 44:3 (KJV): ” 3For I will pour water upon him that is thirsty, and floods upon the dry ground: I will pour my spirit upon thy seed, and my blessing upon thine offspring.”

These past few weeks I have found myself asking God where He is. When I don’t seem to hear a response I begin to think. Similarly to how I used to do as a child when I heard my parents yell my name with super authority. I would scan my mind of all of the things that I could have done wrong. When asking God where He is I find myself scanning my mind, thinking of sins I may have committed to push Him away. Sure, I sin each and every day but I couldn’t think of any sin I was freely indulging in. I began to think it was something different that He wanted to bring to my attention. The transgressions that came to mind were sins that I had been fighting against and repented for, plus God didn’t put on my heart that there was something specific that He wasn’t pleased with. So what else could it be? Why does my bestfriend seem so far? Why does Satan feel closer than God? Where could my First Love be? Does He know that I love Him? I know that He loves me. So where is He? Is He really quiet or can I simply not hear Him? Am I talking too much, not giving Him enough time or opportunity to talk? Is He talking but not saying what I want to hear? Something isn’t right and I can’t sweep it under the carpet. I want to address it so my Father and I can continue in holy collaboration.

Psalm 42: 1-2 (KJV): 1As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.2My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?”

I am learning that aside from our sins, God can hide from us JUST so that we can seek Him. It is a terrible feeling to feel distant from someone you care for so deeply. But the key is that if we REALLY love God, we will take heed to His getting our attention. We often say that we love Him but the proof is if we keep His commandments (John 14:15). I appreciate that I am even able to recognize the presence of God because I was only aware after I stopped treating God like a business partner and began to seek Him as a Groom. He gives us a mind to know when something isn’t right. We have no wisdom. We have no knowledge. We have no insight– aside from what He gives us. We must praise Him for giving us understanding of spiritual things.

John 7:37 (KJV): ” 37In the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried, saying, If any man thirst, let him come unto me, and drink.”

I understand what God is doing in my life at the moment. He is allowing me to know what it is like for Him to not feel as close as what I am used to. I thank Him for giving me a mind and heart to recognize what is going on and I pray that He gives me the perseverance to forever seek Him. Thirst that will drive me to pick up the Bible before I pick up a fashion magazine or listen to a sermon rather than seeing what the world is up to. Being thirsty for Him will encourage me to pray as soon as I open my eyes rather checking my iPad as soon as I realize I am awake. God gives us things and people to enjoy but our thirst puts Him first. The fact that I am clueless and unsure about a lot of things in my life right now gives opportunity for the thirst for our Savior to provide answers. The questions I have can only be answered by Him and guess what? He will only give them if I seek Him. He isn’t a machine that spits out what we want after we push a button and He doesn’t work like Google–one click cannot solve all of our problems. Thirst allows us to become hidden in Him but it is different from anything that is and will ever be required for us to do on Earth. He knows that, which is why He gets our attention –so that we can step it up for Him. We live by His standards, not the world’s.

Matthew 5:6 (KJV): 6Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.”

I am forever grateful knowing that my thirst in Him can be filled. It is only because I am human that I have potential to have a spiritually dehydrated well. I mean we naturally try to become complete in the world and unfortunately we become so comfortable that we sometimes lose our integrity of remaining competent in our Father’s kingdom. Or maybe it is fortunate because our weakness and folly allows His divine interventions to give Him glory. Our thirst for Him humbles us and reminds us that WE NEED HIM! I appreciate anything that gives our Father glory and I pray that I take the necessary steps to edify Him in all that I do.

John 19:28 (KJV): 28After this, Jesus knowing that all things were now accomplished, that the scripture might be fulfilled, saith, I thirst.”

Lord, I am nothing without You. I am weak, but I want to boast in Your strength. I am thirsty for You and I want Your living water to flow through me. I have been selfish but I ask that You to make me selfless. I confess that when You feel far, my life shatters. I want more of You and nothing less. I want You in my heart, forever–as I pray that I follow You all of the way to glory. You are my everything Father. If I am in error in any way, please correct my path. I beg that You search my heart and expose any wicked way that be in me. I pray for humility, that I may humbly do Your work only remaining confident in the ability of Your power, Your authority, and Your strength. This is why I can boast in my weakness, because it provides opportunity for Your edification. I want You to consume my entire being. I want the sweet scent of Your word to be entangled in every fiber of existence. I want my flesh completely crucified and my spirit to be completely alive in You. Help me remain thirsty Lord, I beg of You. I love You only because You loved me first. I want the Holy Ghost fire to shock my system, causing my heart to beat to a rhythm unknown to man. I want a new song of praise, a new dance, a new jubilee unto You. I don’t want the muddy water from puddles in the world. I don’t want artificially flavored water from Satan. I want Your holy water! I pray that You keep me focused, desperate, eager, and thirsty for You. All of the way to glory. Amen.

Revelation 7:16-17 (KJV): 16They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more; neither shall the sun light on them, nor any heat.17For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.”



Universal Prevail

I am currently on vacation in Florence (Tuscany) Italy at the moment. A friend and I couldn’t imagine not doing anything today and since we didn’t have a church to attend today, we decided to go to our favorite mountain top and have our own service. It was spectacular to say the least. It was amazing to cry out to Him while looking down at the country.

 Psalm 65:6 (KJV): ” 6Which by his strength setteth fast the mountains; being girded with power.”

I had an interesting experience in Milan, Italy–right before I left for Florence. I was tired when I landed in Italy and so my friend and I decided to take a taxi to our hotel in Milan. As we approached the hotel we saw women standing in front of their cars just lounging and talking. As we passed the women the taxi driver stated, “You are staying in the prostitute district. Keep your doors locked and eyes open at all times.” My eyes nearly fell out of my head when I heard that we were staying in a prostitution district. While I wasn’t too concerned about the prostitutes, I thought about the men who typically become involved with these women. The taxi driver mentioned us being cautious a few more times, making me more concerned. Then at one point my friend and I said, “Well we were going to be careful anyway. It probably isn’t that big of a deal.”

Until…we got into the hotel.

The first thing the receptionist did was asked for us to fill out a police report. I was confused about what was going on because the hotel was pretty expensive and had great reviews. We felt tricked and nervous about having to fill out a police report before even paying the remainder of the payment for the room. It was after 1 am and we had nowhere else to go so we gathered our things and went up the steps into our room. We were supposed to stay there until about noon the next day but we already knew that our schedule needed to change. I will admit, we were terrified– trying to stay close in the room, not touching anything if we didn’t have to. We refused to sit on the beds and certainly didn’t plan to shower there. The uneasiness in the room was strong enough to grab the attention of even the most skeptical non-believer. It was time to pray.

1 Peter 3:8 (KJV): ” Finally, be ye all of one mind, having compassion one of another, love as brethren, be pitiful, be courteous.”

We began praying for our protection and peace within and around us. I soon found myself beginning to pray for the women and men who are indulging in these sinful acts. I began praying for their salvation and that Satan’s hold would be broken in their lives. That caught me by a surprise because I began praying for myself and ended up praying for them. This shows me that the Lord was taking over because my flesh only thinks of itself but He is selfless and thinks of others. My friend and I spent the rest of the night listening to Gospel and reading Scripture. I was hoping to make a breakthrough as a vessel to help any captive souls willing to receive Christ as their Lord and Savior. I wanted the Spirit of God to dwell in that place, disturbing all wickedness taking over. I was praying that the blood of Jesus would prevail for all of those who wish to know Him.

On our special mountain top I thought about that experience in Milan, how His blood prevails universally. I have prayed many prayers in America and Denmark but I never imagined to pray that same prayer in Italy. My friend and I encouraged each other to trample over fear and rejoice in His power. At one point I said, ” Well, God can save anyone! Even a prostitute. I mean, if He can change a hardcore atheist.. it isn’t over unless He says it is over.” Then my friend responded, ” Yep, Look at Mary Magdalene.”

Psalm 95:4 (KJV): “In his hand are the deep places of the earth: the strength of the hills is his also.”

After reading the resurrection passage this afternoon I rejoiced while thinking of His blood offering redemption to each and every one of us. While we may need to be in a certain state to get the new Apple product first or be in a specific country to have the best tasting water– His blood has no boundaries.

Psalm 36:6 (KJV): “Thy righteousness is like the great mountains; thy judgments are a great deep: O Lord, thou preservest man and beast.”

I looked to my left and saw some random things piled together and I thought,”Why is this ugly stuff in the center of this beautiful view?” But similarly,  we can always question why ugly sin rests in His beautiful temples. The picture below was small compared to the rest of the scenery but it was “ugly” enough to constantly catch my attention. That is our sin.

It is refreshing to have His blood purge all filth from us–one moment at a time.


Amos 9:13 (KJV):  13Behold, the days come, saith the LORD, that the plowman shall overtake the reaper, and the treader of grapes him that soweth seed; and the mountains shall drop sweet wine, and all the hills shall melt.”

Even when we try to hide our sins. Yep, those secret sins–He sees those too. Don’t be too ashamed to admit and confess. Thank Him for searching your heart and discovering all that is deeply rooted and dormant.

Follow the path that He has already paved for you. His blood has already conquered death, conquered sin, conquered disease, conquered generational curses–conquered all wickedness in high places. He went before us because He had the heart and mind to be obedient to the Father and do what none of us could do.

Hold tight Body of Christ! He has shed His precious blood so that we may have life, so that we may have redemption. I loved being able to feel His presence and His forgiveness all of the away on the hills of Italy. The blood isn’t only for me but also for you. I spoke with my Mother today as she told me how she enjoyed her first time in church, after maybe 5 years. Towards the end of the conversation my Mom began to compare her walk with others, using them as a guide. My only suggestion is that she look for God to lead her, not man. It is always vital for us to meet Christ before we meet the Christian. The same thing He does for one vessel He can do for another.

Romans 2:11 (KJV): ” 11For there is no respect of persons with God.”

We cannot forget that His blood prevails universally!